i miss being in love .. :/

i woke up this morning , at three oclock , retrace my memory , that nobody will greet me my GooDMORNING SAYANG anymore at exactly 7:30 , so i guess my 7;30's ruitines will end now  huh ? and just that fact , i curled myself into a ball , and cried , it made me more sad that i had to think of the EVIL fact that he wont even be there to catch me when i fall , likehow he used to . my SUPERMAN is nowhere near me anymore . so i guess im just LONELy again . nobody to catch me when i fall , or to comfort me after a bad day and curl up with me and listen to me cry and tell me everythings gonna be okay . and all of that is gone today , after my stupid decision , of leaving . i know , im gonna regret it aint i ? then y did i did it ? yup , i am the worst ! n im sorry . i hurt another heart , AGAIN ., and i didnt knew that it will hurt this bad . i guess its a payback , for a JERK like me ! grr ~ but still its a payment i have to pay , n so , yup , i think im gnna heal soon , so yeaah . BUHBYE heart break , n welcome IEYQA the new one . :) , hee . :p

                                             (to a loveless life .. yeaay , i guess .. ahha :P )

i guess he doesnt need me anymore rite ? so i guess its time to skip to num 5 , n juz HEAL .

was i always a game that doesnt have the rite to even fall in love ?
thx alot for bullying and being painful to my heart .
cuz wat u did really made me stronger and made myself promise to never fall inlove with a guy like u ever again :) .
so yeaah , thx alot . n buhbye . HEALING time . hee :3 .
so ive got alot to do , im gnna sit at home , n make activities for me n my frens to jst have fun and enjoy ! yeaah ! aaha :P definitely enjoy . cuz i used to be inlove to a CRIMINAL . :)

5 things im gonna do without u :')

1. block u from my heart .
2. deactivate my facebook , cuz thts the first thing that would remind me of u ;(
3. deleting u fom my fone
4. missin u , n regret it . but the EGO wouldnt let me near u
5. HEAL . :)
</3 . a life without u , is a lifeless one . but the pain will help me to heal better , n change me into a better person :)
so even without u , i guess , i could live . so thx , n BUHBYE . ;)

oh my god ,. i miss you so much rite nw ! grr ~ .. i need u ! :/

chocolates for my broken heart :')

after a bad break up , with u .. im eatin up all the chocolates i have n ruining the life of apok :) . hee . but , still the sadness in me , will drown me , because just a few minutes from u , makes me regret everything . im sorry , but i have to . bye :') , im really hopin tht wat i did was rite . maybe ur just nt the one for me . SORRY . but im leaving . n imissyou . :'(..

~stay at school ;]~

"pOoNteng SkowLa.. AAARRRGGGHH !! :{"

eeyy ! nk tny skit , pnah x korang pnteng before ?? huh ! ap ? soalan bdoh awk ckp ! huh ! eyy , klu soalan bdoh xkan lhaa ak nk tny ! eiisshh ! im actually worried to death yesaterday , sbb ak kne tngkp ponteng seyeyyhh !! uwaaaaaaaaa :{ ! takowt glerrwww ! marin is cnsdered the WOST DAY OF MY LIFE ! ,, ak ingtkan pnteng tuh cool lhaa sgt ! rupenye , bnd yg mengong jeaaakk ! dhaa lhaa kne alweys tgx22 around , tkowt klu tbe2 plis ikpowt ke , ad owa ikowt keaa , uurrghh ! mmmg x bessttt ! i hated it ! tpy the best part of it , i dint even think oof the consiquences of even getting caught , ingatkan dhaa line clearaa nim kaan , rupenyee ... chheett ! cg dhaa lbbeyyh kedpan agy from me ! urrrgghh! kne tngkp gaaakk .. hurrmm :[ ..
tpy look at the bright side , atleast ak akn ingt for the rest of my life yg actually , pnteng skowla nie was never cool n never will be babe ! so stay at school n jgn lhaa nk mngade nk ikowt my footsteps yg x btol nie ! soo yeaah , stay at school geng , n ditching class n school , soooo un-COOL !
k thtz all for me , sowie dhaa lme x update blog nim .. but , still , jgn lpe lhaa yew dtg menjengok .. :) iloveyouguysketadketad gtoe ! :P muaahh .. :*

obsesssed to zuahiril adzim !

i kinda have a secret to tell , well not really a secret , i am obsessed with zuhairil adzim (the hottest malaysian actor ) . well , i firstly saw him in a movie senjakala , n started to fall deep for him , i mean literally ! i strted to collect most of his photos , save them in my laptop n stare at it ,
i wanna share my obsessions so , i juz posted it on facebook , n i would just stare at his picture n imagine us getting married ! ngee ~  im totally just too obsessed ! wat am i supposed to even do ?
will i be stuck like this forever ?am i gonna die being obsessed n a freak ? im scared ! i noe one thing i cant possibly be dating him , one hes  a u noe actor , n i neva met him before , bute hes just too hot to be true ! wat am i supposed to do ? i feel like a stalker ! uurrggh ! i feel like goin crazy rite now ! shieessh ! >:O

exams over !

yyeeaAYY !  exams daa abesshh ! hahx eppy glerrw ! lpas nie x yah a nk mgadap gy bku .! hahx > so heppy !
:))

~SMILE~ :))

   although after a massive or a bad breakup we will definitely feel bad , 
  sometimes we might also just fall into a our knees and just start to cry .
well im here to tell u guys , dun lose hope !
and just SMILE ! 
just a big round :D can help cure more than a broken heart , but also a broken dream .
so just smile ! it will definitely help ! 
i noe i tried .
and always remember that time wont ever  stop just for u . 
so just face every second , minute every hour of the day with all ure hearts . 
cuz well never noe wen will our beautiful life end .
so lets spend it wif all our hearts ,. 
never let anyone ever destroy that smile n most importntly never let anyone running round leaving scars at ure precious heart ,.
n never forget . ! 
ure absolutely worth it ! 
n ure absolutely worth more than a million bucks ! 
always lurve ureself , n just forget bout the past .
cuz the future will come and fetch us and suprise us with more new things ,better than ure past ! 
so lets just move ahead , n forget bout ure tears . 
cuz each tear worth miles baby ! 
so just forget bouture miserable tearful moments n just SMILE ! 
  LURVE IEYQA ITAYOK ! PEACE OUT ! ^_^

im on a diet !O.o

wHicH meAnz..:

• SAY bye2 to ure fav frozen yogurtz annur..cuz theyre gonna be gone 4 a long time..!(unless u noe somebdys insistin..well the bdy wnt noe..!)O.o
• SAY bye2 to ure late note(well as i like to call it..SUPPEr...)sncks..:'(
• SAY bye2 to ure fav caorific food cuz aftr this..u can only eat greeenn..!(gross muchh..!!)
• SO bye2 carbz,calooriiee, proteinzz(well..sometimess..),n all laaaa.!!!:'(

FROM NOW ON..,gonna hve to only jOg till i drOp.., eat Only GREEN..(lurve the earth maa..!!)O.o,sleep only 8 ourz a dey....,no more icky n gooiey supper..,less suger in everythin i tke..,n X more EATIN CHALORIEZ...!!!(n the rest iz juz doin more push ups till threz juz too much of pax till i cant afford it anymore..!!)O.o

`WaTs uRe pR0b..??!!>:o

i mean rellyy..!!i dun get wats ure prob la kann...!!!wat up wif u la mann..!!y do u like destroyin my life so much...or hve u forgotten tht this gal here was ure bezfwen be4..!!i mean...wtv happened between us juz let it goo laa,..!!n i dun get y do u hve to accuse me in sch things....whle i dun even have anythin to do bout this at all....!!ure prob....x yah la nk libatkan ngan ak..!!!ntang pe awu....tbe2 nk crik psal nge ak..!!ceett..!kpantangan owunk mlake tau x..!!!>:o..!n yg ko tu mlot clupa sgt knpeww..!!ak tau la  yg ko 2 ekcuali juz jelez ...sbb x dew owunk hingin nk rogol ko..!!dala gmok..!!x sdar dry..!!tlng la wweeyy..!!!any guy tht even eksidentelly slept wif u will cry after tht....!!!n juz suffer for the rest of his life..!!tau x..!!!soo plixzzzz....jgn la enjex sgt yeewww..!!!n btw.....i think ive been juz too kind wif a bitch like u..!!so...ull see.....u btter hve a lot of security around u..!!cuz ul neva noe wen will i juz jump in n mke ure nitemares juz come to lifee..!!!ajk lerw lake mmberw mg orr..!!!dop kesoh sket pom!!!!klu npew2 kdy kew ak..ak ley revenge blek...n this timee...im a demon....cuz im a fully angry ghost..!!!ull seee..!!feel safe...wile u caann..!!saiyo nara..!!!my ex beloved bezfweenn...!i hope u rot in hell wif mee..!!
 

my friend,my traitor......

welll....heres the story....once upon a time....eka n her best fwen was one of the best fwends in the whle skull...u coulsd consider them as the bezfwen of the year....couz theres nobody else as close as those two....where miera is...eka is there tooo....so they called them twins....hahax....little did eka know tht eventually her bexfwen was her bez n worst nightmare eva.....so eka has a little tale to tell us....eka here...has alweyz beem alone....even wen she was a kid....well thtz becuz since she was a kid she neva relly had the full attemtion tht she shuld have.....her father wasnt alweyz around....n shes only close to her mom cuz thtz her only companion since she was alittle kid....well u see...eka here ....has alweyz been very differnt from other kidz of her age....she would imagine things tht kids wuldnt even understand.,,or uthings tht kidz wulnmt eva think of....n shes juz too over artistic.....she has alweyz been artistic...even as a kid...well thtz jyz her...i think thtz wyhy she dint hve lots of friends as a kid....her first friends were maybe these three indian gurlz in seremban...n she was standerd three wen she had real friens...but still she got bullied...juz becuz of her friends were alittle different from the others.....but she juz dint care.....cuz she lurved her fist frenz...n she had a bllast every single dey wif them.....n shes proud of tht.....but then everythin changed wen she moved bck to melaka.....the little kitten eka has now turned into a tiger....now she noes how to  defend herself wen shes in pain n all....cuz she had alot of backup from her friens....eka turned out to be the bully now....but then....her kingdom of sekolah rendah...dint last long....she had to pindah to terengganu....she had faced a lot of difficulties while tryin to find the purfect fren for her.....so then...out of nowhere......came her bezfwen....they matched like they were made for each other.....they relly fit/....so then...eka said...yup...ive found my one n truly bez fwen.....n she was so excited bout tht.,....she also had a blast every single dey.....but little did she know.....tht eventually.....she just used her......then...one dey,,,.....her enemy....****.......came to her n told her to becareful wif her bezfwen....but well....she wasnt tht maturd themn...of course the meaning of frenship is mre importnt....but wat that gal said was 100%true....she juz used her....but unfortubantely.....the poor eka was juz blinded by her....so wat to say......we cant undo the past now culd she.....so they went on as fwenz.....but then...eka had top pindah to anther skul n she was soo sad....she couldnt meet her so called bez fwen all the time after this....but then....this bezfwen of hers....decided to mve also...she thought tht she mved is juz becuz they wanted to be togetehr agein...but ekcuali she had other palns....she had frens there....so...thtz wat hppened....she left eka there out of nowhere...in this deep dark forest called as ***** skull.....wat shuld she do....she lodst hope.....so she juz stumbled n cried....as we were told...eka has a rough character....but a very very senstive n fragile n delicate heart......she juz let herself cried for thewhole day....juz becuz of tht stupid bitch....becuz of tht bitch....eka stumbled....becuz of tht btch....eka cried....becuz of tht bitch...eka lost hope on evryone.....n she juz drew weaker...till she culdnt cme the nex day becuz of herself cryin....till she found out tht....well...wats the point....evn if she cried out blood or till she ides....it istill wont change the past....so....she stood up....looked at herself in the mirror...n saw someone else in the reflection...n tht person was defntely not her.....she dint hve tht lively type of spirit tht she used to hve....she dint hve tht smile of hers anymre....all tht was there...juz messy hair...n scery red eye balls....as proof tht she cried for a whle 2  deyz....juz becuz of tht un thnkful bitch......so she said to herelf...wat happened to u annur...ure not this mnster...ure the mst lively gal in the wrld...!!!!!!cme on...people cry.....not u...ure not juz a gal...ure EXTRAORDINARY.....!!!!so shut ure ass up....clean up ureself....get tht big bulky red eyes out of u.....n strt to straighten ureself back agein.....u aint this gal in the mirror...tht gal is a loser......well heck if nobody wanna be ure bezfwen or fwen....u will juz run solo...so wat bout tht....juz mve on wif ure well a little pathetix but still kinda awesome life.....juz mve on...n neva look bck...okie....??!!.....so now...eka is livin healthy n still a solo ranger....but shes damn heppy bout tht...she relly loved it...hahax...juz her n her thoughts....n her paperwork of designs....juxz herself in her own world...n mst importnt thing is tht eventually shes very heppy bout it....n she dint even regret not even a single moment of it....but shes ekcuali kinda proud of herself...cuz she learned to be a stronger, mre careful, n mre opicky n mst imprtnt thing is tht shes very heppy....cuz theres no such things as a bez fwen or a true fren or a true bf.....or aythin la....juz true FAMILY/.....so juz remember....aslongas ure heppy wif it...then ithtz ure thng....if ure unheppy bout it....dun be afreid to speak it out......cuz these deyz everyone has the tight to do anythin..n dun forget...klu dye wat kte x puas atie....sman je la...ahhahx..:P).....
continue to read my blog kay..>>!huhu....<3....^_^....... 

my UnKnOwN CuRsE...

am i thje only one wif this curse.......there i was...askin such questions after i found out bout this ancient curse....wow....u wouldnt wanna noe hoe i felt.....felt relly bad....n i relly hate it.....n i couldnt believe tht i was chosen to accept this unknown curse....it was horrible to noe........wat am i goinna do....????shuld i try...????becuz wat i herd is tht people could even die becuz of thing....i dun wanna die yet....!i wanna live my life filled wif all my imaginary happiuness...wat am i supposed to do/....but tht thing kinda chose me.....but y...???i hve a relly weak heart.....where did all the qualifications cme from....????huh...????!!!i gt so worried n confusd all the time......im still confused.....cuz theres more strong herted peops in my family.....y me...?????wats so speacial bout me....????am i gonna end up bein a teenage freak...not tht i am sayin im not a freak...i am.....but...will it end up even worse thn a joke....???i mean like...i am a freak....wat eppens wen i end up bein a freak....will it be the end of eka kitaro...??will it be the end of annur rafiqah..????m i gonna keep askin these questions....welll...i dunnoo...........

sch00l liFE...^_^

     school at first is kinda ok to me....for me this new schooll...ok ok je learh.....huhu...but....u noe...i made a coule of gud fwens n bad ones....hahahx....but everyday s  alot of fun for me....!!!!!cuz.....my bez fwen has cme 2 my new school....soooo.....heppy glerw larhhh..!!!!!!!!hahahx...atleasrt i got a fwen....but then on by one i dpt new fwenz......the good are the bez.....n while this whole month i found a two faced liar whu made me tghink she was my fwen while actualy shes juz one of the worst jerks in the world......but u noe wat...i am definitely okie...hahahx....hell larhh wif all of  u who has been such a jerk 2 me......but....but i still had fun.....i had  a couple of laughter n pain...but thtz life kan...wat cn i say....whu am i 2 do anythin....life has alwayz been like tht.....soo....ak redha dngan dugaan yg ku terime....ahahax..alhamdulillah jugak.....klu bnde mcm nie x blaku....so ak x kn tau whu is my gud fwen n whu is the mkean badwolf....ahhahx....^_^....so SMILE ALWAYZ my peops.....!!!!!!!!!!huhuuhu/.....smile...^_^.....
     thtz all 4 me....!!!!!so...keep readin me blog....lurve u guyz....ahhahx....!!!!mmmuuuahhhh......:).....
tenkayuuuu.....:P

about...me...^_^

hey guyz...ITS ME...ure gal eka kitarooo....hahax...well here's somethin bout me...
   im an adventurous,crazy,funny,clumsy,WEIRD!!!!!,,stret forwerd,if ure taalkin to me bout complicated stuff....plizz tell me bout it twice or thrice...or juz several times....hahx....n i hve a short term memory loss....sorta....smetimes i juz lie bout it...juz 2 escape.hahx...i am livin in a not so purfect life....well hell..!whu does....hahx...im no genius or tech-genius....im juz ME....hahx...i go to the gym like...well...LAZY MUCH...but i still go there like every friday in Ri;Yaz then juz fatten my bdy bck wif  hi tea thre......hahx...^_^....n i am a so not mlu type of person....i dun cre wat people think...cuz thatz juz me.....hahax....^_^....n my ambitious ambition is juz 2 becume either a graphix desugner oorrr a briter future....a FASHION DESIGNER...n i forgot 2 tell u guyz....I AM ALSO ARTISTIC IN MY WORK...hahax..^_^.... n in my life ive been thrugh alot....crisis wif fwens.....family...lurvelife...(hahax...)...choices 4 my future...skul crisis....n mny mre...but thrugh all this im considerin myself very lucky 2....i still have my parentz...my dads not a drunk...my moms not a drug addict..my fmily has neva faced wif rehab prob or any bad attitude prob in my family..my fmily neva faced any prob wif mney or food....ekcuali smpi trlbeyh pon ade....im the only child in the fmily...n thnk goddd..!!!hahax...^_^....my parentz hve their dream jobs....n i am livin epily....n mst importantly....enough 4 me...hahx....^_^....ALHAMDULILLAH....^_^...n i am so not a shopper- holic....i lurve shoppin but....not crazy bout them....hahx...^_^.....i lurve sewin....n mst important thing...!!!i lurve....fooodddd....hahx.....juz lurve them...i mean like really...their pretty n they mke us hppy n full hahx.....^_^....i lurve b-box,jazz,boulevard,smooth,r&b.....n mre.....im kureng ckit ngan malay songs....i lurve english songs mostly....hahahahx......my fav singer wuld be miley cyrus....she mite not have the greatest attitude...n i so dun wanna be her...but we cant deny...her songs r definitely awesome...^_^....my idol wuld be furst my prophet,nabi muhammad (saw),my mom,n the king of elegance,valentino garavani...hpe my dream job wuld cme true...i can only try my bez,bust my butt in math books,n juz continue designing....n not 2 forget....doa sentiase...haahx....^_^....sooo....i guezz thtz it.....thtz about me....THX 4 LISTENIN N JUZ CONTINUE 2 READ MY BLOG K...^_^....lurve ya'll.....hahx..^_^....kk...thx...!!!!!
                                eka kitaro(annur rafiqah)^_^....smile alwayzzz!!!!!!!